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Happy New Year

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So I just feel like doing a bit of rambling today for reasons unknown, please bear with me.

Writing has been an amazing outlet. It helped tremendously in times when I felt like I was drowning and needed to pick myself up. I could not have done it without you guys, even when there are no comments on posts, I would see site stats and go at least someone out there is reading what I have to say. Then I stopped writing because I got scared.

“Is this really any good? Am I learning? Am I growing?”

At the moment, I still can’t answer these questions but hey, where’s the fun in it if I don’t keep pushing? Maybe it won’t be as exciting as when I was exploring fresh, virgin territory, because now I have to prove myself and sharpen the sword, but it still remains an area I want to develop myself in.

Starting this year on a clean slate seems like a wise way to begin. I write under a pen name, I’m not quite sure why at the moment. When I decided to work on my writing in June last year, I did not want false praise and idle flattery from friends hence the anonymity. I envisaged a situation where even if it was crap I would have people applauding my efforts simply because

“oh she’s an amazing person who is near and dear to my heart”,
“ah, I don’t want to hurt her feelings” and so on and so forth.

Looking back, perhaps it’s also because I didn’t want to bear the weight of their expectations.

“Is this the crap she delivers? I know she can do better.”

My outlook has not changed, I’m not sure I will ever be able to go about with a banner touting my work but I have decided to simply let things unfold as they may, who knows where the road may lead.

Oh, and lest I forget, I wrote about my year on Efe’s blog, you can read it here

Out with the old, in with the new, welcome to 2013